Summary
I'm back in Thailand, but I'm not here to move on. I'm consciously choosing silence - focus, introspection, staying here for a while.
When the title of this post came to mind, the Terminator immediately came to mind. I think he is the most famous retrograde.
At the same time, it occurred to me that in addition to returning, I will also become a little bit of a Terminator.
I will not be living tissue on a metal frame, but now I need a more serious focus in my life, so I am switching part of my present into machine mode.
There is only one target in the crosshairs now.
Me.
I will stay here for a while
As I wrote in the post “Bali – Chiang Mai: 3 takeoffs, 3 landings”, I was filled with extraordinary happiness to return to Thailand.
I was overcome by the same feeling that I had the first time: I am home.
The emotional content of the sentence – I live in Asia – has not changed at all for me in the past months. It is still inexplicable why this simple sentence carries the message that I am happy.
But I still don’t want to understand this. That’s how it is, let this be part of the silence.
Silence
I arrived here because I finally really want to try out what it’s like to be completely alone.
If there really is no other way but to stay in touch online.
Not out of fear, but out of curiosity.
In Koh Samui, my landlord and his dog were there, and then I found the Critical Thinkers Society.
In Bali, I didn’t have to wait long to become a member of two societies.
Towards the end of my stay in Indonesia, I decided that it would be nice to have a bit more quiet time.
I arrived here with this determination.
There would be plenty of opportunities here to meet people and participate in events.
But I’m consciously skipping that now.
Now I’m leaving time to concentrate on my own things and delve into myself in a different way.
In machine mode. Positively. Focused.
Now I will turn inward for a while more seriously and continue on the path I have begun.
I have returned. Not simply to Thailand, but to the intention to be surrounded by silence.
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