Summary
This article is full of sentences that suggest uncertainty in its wording. But I have no uncertainty at all, I really felt what was happening today!
Of course, there was no breakthrough, because I had neither been to war nor faced any physical obstacles. Although, the latter may be an option after all…
But I didn’t break through anything either, because wherever I get to, it’s just a momentary state, not a merit acquired forever.
In any case, that’s the title of this post, because I couldn’t find a better expression right now.
Yesterday, in connection with my meditation experiences, I wrote about the physical torments that have surrounded my days these days.
So – here’s what happened!
First of all, yesterday at 9:30 PM I was already in my bed, in a sleeping position. It’s true that I couldn’t fall asleep for two hours (I wasn’t tired), but I didn’t give up.
That’s not what’s interesting. It’s more that until I fell asleep, I had time to wonder how I could barely find an uncomfortable position. The bed was comfortable!
This is a milestone, an achievement, but I could even call it a breakthrough.
5:00 in the morning found me in the kitchen, from there I just went in to offer breakfast. From there comes breakfast, and soon the walking meditation.
Which was a particularly great experience today. If there was a concept of a successful meditation, this would have been something like that. But since there is no good or bad, successful or unsuccessful, I will put it differently.
It filled me with a very good feeling that I managed to maintain a very conscious concentration for almost the entire hour. Time does not play a role. Nor does the degree of concentration. I was rather just happy that I fell out of concentration a few times.
The sitting meditation after this gave me another outstanding experience. On the one hand, it was very easy physically. I sat for 40 minutes without any problems with my legs crossed and my back straight.
Today I experienced a level of presence that I have never experienced before, and that I will definitely write about later.
All I can say is that today I discovered a tool of awareness that makes it very easy for me to concentrate on the present.
The lying meditation after that was a “reward game”. The time almost flew by, the presence was so easy.
All in all – by the time we finished it was only 10 o’clock – I already had my dose of happiness for today.
And today – I don’t know and I don’t care why – I felt very proud of myself.
It’s good to write! Because now, with these lines, I am working at my limits.
My last sentence has simply been born.
It seems that today is the day when I allow myself to be proud of myself. With all my heart!
Postscript:
I can’t stop myself from writing:
There were fireworks today!
Today is the first day of the Chinese New Year, so we listened to the explosions and crackles of fireworks during our evening meditation.
I Wish You a Happy New Year!
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