Summary
My thoughts on my loneliness. I will be alone, but not lonely.
I have never been lonely!
I say this despite the fact that there was a time when I was single, as I am now. Here, in the Hungarian version, I wrote a sentence stating that, if possible, I do not use foreign terms, mainly borrowed from English, to designate a concept, but rather the Hungarian equivalent. That’s because I respect our beautiful Hungarian mother tongue.
Before using such fashionable terms, I usually look up exactly what the given word might mean, because I believe in precise definitions.
Single means a single adult living without a partner.
The term does not necessarily refer to a marital status, but often also suggests a lifestyle where being single is the result of a conscious choice. Many people enjoy the independence and freedom that this lifestyle offers, while others actively seek a partner.
An example is a career-oriented woman in her thirties who is not currently looking for a partner because she is focused on her work. A recently divorced man who is not yet ready for a new relationship can also be single.
Source: https://lexiq.hu
The man mentioned in the example is me, we’ll see if I’m ready. I never consciously chose this lifestyle, my current partner always chose it for me.
So, I’m single, I’ll probably not embark on this journey with a partner, but alone.
I thought about the above because the difference is important to me, that although I’m single, I’m not lonely. And it’s very important that in my life so far, I feel like I’ve never been lonely before.
I don’t think I’ll be lonely now either, although there’s no doubt that I had to think about what it would mean to have no one I know in my immediate vicinity. At least not at first.
I have a loving family. In the trying storms of life, it has been proven every time that I can always count on my family. Most of the time, they helped me by patiently listening to what I had to say. However, when I needed it, I also received advice. But, there have also been times when they have furnished me with an apartment in a matter of moments. Or, as they are now, they have built a roof over my head. My family is a great treasure, I would do the same for any of them. My family is always a guarantee that I will not be lonely.
Then there are my very valuable friends. I get about the same from them as from a family. They listen patiently to the details of my sufferings that arise from time to time. They hug me when I need to. They caress me when I cry. They give advice when they feel it is necessary. They pull me out of a ditch when I fall into it. In the last 30+ years of my adult life, I have developed friendships that have stood the test of time many times over. As I write these lines, I am thinking of relationships for which I can give a lot at any time. My second reserve against loneliness is the multitude of these relationships.
Distance is not a problem for me. I dare to hope that it will not be an insurmountable obstacle for these relationships either. Wherever I imagine myself in the world, I cannot think of a place from which I would not be able to stay in touch with the people mentioned above.
One of my friends told me a few weeks ago at the beginning of this journey that he was not worried about me. In his opinion, as easily as I make acquaintances, he is sure that I will not be lonely. Then he immediately added that we could continue our usual Tuesday conversations, walks, and sports sessions with him, only we will be in a different country, in a different time zone. I like the idea.
With the help of today’s technology, the distance between people will hopefully really decrease.
I have another company, about which a separate post will be made soon, and that is reading.
It was important for me to address the issue of loneliness so that I can say with a clear head and courage: I am not afraid of loneliness at all.