Summary
The AI said this would be easier to read.
Half an hour ago I woke up with the idea of asking ChatGPT to rephrase my post from yesterday to make it more understandable. It finished the task within half a minute. I wasted about ten times as much time editing the image of the post. For the first time in the history of the blog, there will be a post whose English version contains a different image. I should also say that I also entrusted the rewriting of the image to the AI, but it did not produce any usable results.
I leave it to you to decide whether the text has become more readable. My opinion is that yes, and I must also admit that the software wrote it better than I did – in my opinion. But I still solved the image!
I will not give you cause for concern. I will continue to write the posts myself, I will not entrust this to the software!
The AI-rewritten version
This is my fortieth post on the blog. I originally wanted to write about a different topic, but the thought that has been occupying me for days is finally asking for writing. I don’t object, I let it take shape.
A few days ago I asked myself the question: what am I looking for in my life? The answer that came to mind: something that was lost. Or something that was never mine. The latter thought really grabbed me. Maybe something has always been missing from my life?
It’s a difficult question to answer. If I don’t know the answer myself, I can’t expect help from anyone else. I’ve often felt that I’m close… but to what? Not to the solution, not to a specific answer, but to some intangible good, a source that many people are looking for. Yet, what frustrated me the most was that I was unable to articulate what I was looking for.
Mária Szepes’ book The Red Lion had a great impact on me. Beyond the history of alchemy and Eastern philosophy, it also contained an important idea: if we seek the ultimate answer, we will never reach our destination. Every answer gives rise to new questions, and if we venture too far into the forest of questions, we can lose ourselves.
I have seen people who have found their “answer”. They proclaimed it, they represented it, but in reality it never satisfied them. They could not rest, because they still had questions. Can a person be so arrogant as to believe that they know everything? I know few people who have really come far on the path of knowledge, especially when I say: knowledge equals happiness.
I know for sure that I am only at the beginning of my own journey. There were moments when I thought I had come far, but life always beckoned me to humility.
So what am I looking for? I think it is myself. Socrates’ famous saying – Know thyself – has become my compass. In recent months, I have realized that the purpose of my life is to know myself. I am not looking for something that is lost. I am looking for something that was never mine.
It is no coincidence that I have come to this realization now. The previous 39 posts may have already suggested that I am going through a serious change. I am looking for my path after a trauma, I have found mentors, I am trying relaxation methods, I meditate, and I will soon start exercising again. By the time I move to Thailand, I would like meditation and exercise to be part of my everyday life. This is no longer just a plan, but a decision.
I do not believe that absolute truths exist in the world. Reality is too complex for a single answer to be enough. As Douglas Adams’ brilliant book suggests, the interpretation of the world is not the same for everyone. If you have not read the book The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, I heartily recommend it: you will be richer if you understand its essence.
As I approach the end, I can say: I feel close to what I’m looking for, but I don’t know what it is yet. Maybe I’ll never get there, but I’ll definitely be on this path. If I do get there and someone is there for me, I’ll let you know.
I’m not the competitive type. I don’t care if I never reach my goal. The journey is what’s important. I don’t think I have anything to lose, but I know that I can only win by creating my new life. Just being able to work for my dream is a gift.
Many people think I’m brave, but I feel more lucky. Maybe now you can understand why.